“Don’t be afraid of change”
I detest change. I simply do not cope well with change.
I hate the fact we can’t all just have a simple, easy-going life. I don’t want change, I hate how I’ve met so many different people, but I love the people I have met, yet everything changes so that it’s hard to stay close to people.
Jobs change, people move house, I understand that’s life.
I’ve moved numerous times in the past 5 years, but I wish I could pack up everything that means something to me, and take it with me. I wish I could pack up people just like possessions.
What enables us to stay close to people, even when we’re miles apart?
I feel like I don’t have the ability to, even though I can email, call and text the person to stay in contact, I still wish I could have them in my company.
I’ve probably had three best friends in my lifetime. I’m only 23, so is that thought of as ‘good’? I often wonder if those people still think of me – as I do them. I think of my past way too much, yet I can’t help it. It doesn’t cause me any pain to think of the past, I just love the memories.
Although, then it becomes a dwelling, because I miss those times. I miss the memories. I miss the people. Even so, I can’t say now whether or not I have a best friend. I suppose my partner would be the person i’m closest to now, but I miss having that ‘best friend’. The person who knew everything about me.
How hard is it to form friendships nowadays? I believe it’s become harder. I don’t think it’s as easy as meeting someone in a cafe anymore. Times have changed, and it’s not that simple anymore. Our surroundings are almost feared. We have to be wary of everyone we meet. But why? I remember times when you could be walking to the shop in the morning to get some milk, and you’d greet three or four people during that journey, with a smile and a hello. Now, people tend to keep their heads down, usually looking into their phones for some sort of escape from the real world.
To put it bluntly, I miss old friends, I miss everything. But, i’m sure in another few years, i’ll miss this life I run now. I know I will. I’m happy, don’t get me wrong, I love my life.
I often wonder.. Does anybody else dislike change, or is it just me?